He who has my commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him. John 14:21
This love of God, this invitation to know Him as a Friend as a Father as a Creator, it seems unreal yet it is so real. As my soul yields more and more to the Spirit that abides so close I wonder at this overcoming joy, this rapture as St. Teresa of Avila called it. As I leave things behind that no longer fit who I desire to be, they become dimmer in the distance behind me as they lose their pull on my soul. Everything is dimmer compared to being in His presence. I am entangled and overwhelmed in a beautiful way. I wonder if this is the kingdom of heaven, if I am there, if it has already begun inside me or is it really just a foretaste divine.
I just know that as things of the world seem to dim in His presence, some things seem brighter, clearer and my senses seem alive with the beauty, the sounds, the taste, the scents, the feel of evidence of all that is hoped for in my hand. I want to stay. I am home.