Because sometimes I don’t know how my day needs to unravel until I begin my conversation with my heavenly Father. What will He reveal? Often it is the same thing from Thursday or the same things that were revealed on a random January afternoon. I am on this path of loving Him. And if I love Him I will obey.
I know the things I need to do. The work I am blessed to be entrusted with. The ability to exercise my mind and body in doing what I know is the right thing to do. The obedient thing.
The order, the arrangement, the hourly plan, this is the unraveling of the day. I gather the hours but do I redeem them? Like written out checks with my name on them. Each day with its seconds that seem like nothing. An hour here or half an hour there. I can’t just sit still with this handful of checks. Writing and paper are worthless if not understood and acted upon.
Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit” yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. James 4:13
If I am so blessed to live another season of life I want to live it well. Goals are good. Planning is good unless it is taken to the extreme where you waste more time on planning than actually getting it done. Or when we insist the plan go forward no matter who or what stands in the way. When we say yes to something a no will eventually be required in some other area of life.
There are so many wonderful things to do and so many possibilities. I have to remember my identity is a child of God. I’ve decided that I’ll do certain things and be certain ways, which might be fine if I wasn’t finding my identity in Him. If I wasn’t being pursued by this great God. His love seems to incline my heart more and more towards His desire.
It is as if my desire is His desire, or maybe the other way around. He knows me because He created me. I am finding I trust more and more in this ability He seems to have of knowing exactly what I need and when I need it. It is sort of funny God being God and me being me all human and unable to see.
But I am beginning to trust often in His love. More childlike now as I get older, I am finding I don’t ask as often what His plan or will is (not that He answered me this when I used to obsessively ask). I trust in this love. I have faith that grows most days. I have my goals and my plans but I am giving the Spirit of God room to roam within my soul as my day unravels in His way.